She Speaks

When Q told me of her tale with AJ, I cannot help, but to ask her, “What is wrong with you?”.

Q typed coolly,”I was young and I wasn’t getting enough love from anyone.”

“Isn’t that a sorry excuse?”

“Yes, but I had to learn the hard way.”

With that, Q left the conversation.

We are left to wonder, why do girls, WE, girls, allow ourselves to even be in the situation. Is it because there lives a faint light, that he will change for you? Or is it because we are afraid to be alone or lonely. Hmm, or maybe you think you deserve it? Or perhaps, like me, qmatahari, we love these people so much that to the point of being blind to their faults. I am someone who doesn’t like confrontations and I will avoid them as much as possible. I was also a coward and I was afraid of what would happen if I left or rant it all out.

Now, Q mentioned she wasn’t getting enough love.

Love is probably one of the hardest words to define, given the fact that we all have our variations of love. Love is a very simple feeling, we are able to make more of it and give it to anyone we want (family, friends and even objects with sentimental values.)

I’m not that hyped out about getting boyfriend, I am a serial dater because mainly I’m more interested in friendship than intimacy. My love comes from my family and my friends so I rarely feel that I don’t get enough love.

If you are having problems with your family and you don’t have much friends, its understandable to want a lover. But you are forgetting someone that’s way more important and someone that will never ever leave and that person is you.

Loving yourself doesn’t make you selfish. It is building that internal self worth, the very core of your being that will never shake or falther no matter what others do and say about you. If this boy uses you and abuses you emotionally, never forget who you are.

When you love yourself enough, you will know that you deserve someone better.

And when you do, you will pull away from the relationship. It is going to be hard because maybe this boy has certain good qualities and you stayed for them. Isn’t love all about giving and taking and accepting one’s flaws? Well, that is true BUT a man who loves you will never beat you, will never belittle you and he won’t take advantage of you either.

Leave the relationship, pull away and tell yourself that you don’t need him. You are worth more than a casual fling or a random fuck. It is just so hard to do that, eh? You don’t need pain, you don’t need the criticisms. Unlike you, who has accepted his flaws, he clearly hasn’t accept yours.

Love and respect yourself people!

I hope I made some sense here because I am so sleepy, I have half a mind to hold my eyelids up with double sided tape.

We Have Spoken

Tags: boyfriends, family, friends, love, mistakes